I’m still adjusting – Paula Hutson
My name is Paula Hutson and I live in Texas. My story is like so many of those listed on your patient story pages. Horses are my passion and I lost my eye due to a horse related accident in May of 2004. It has been devastating to me and I sometimes wonder if it was just an accident, or my fate?
I feel so grateful for being alive, but at the same time I have many discouraging moments. It has been difficult to say the least. I’m able to laugh, but think I do so as to not cry. My friends say I am the same person inside, but I don’t feel that way.
When I look in a mirror, my eye doesn’t look right to me. I seem to find negative things in its appearance. My biggest fear is I think people are looking at my artificial eye and not me. I can’t begin to explain the whirlwind of emotions I been going through. I am attempting to keep promising thoughts in my head, but as a woman I feel I will never be at my best.
I’ve been told it will take time for my recovery, and I am aware there are others less fortunate than me. However, I am living this tragedy and nothing seems bigger to me at this time in my life.
I want to thank for allowing me to share my story, especially with the other women included in your story page.
I can say now that I know exactly how you ladies feel and I wish you all the best. I would appreciate women writing to me to share how they recovered from their eye loss.
You’re all in my thoughts,
ITS BEEN 8 YEARS AND IM STILL ADJUSTING BUT SO THANKFUL FOR WHAT I HAVE INSTEAD OF WHAT I LOST DOESNT MEAN IT STILL DOESNT HURT BECAUSE I DO I FEEL SAD